° Another depressing New Year's... *sigh* °
Posted by
Jon :: Dec 31, 2003
A couple minutes ago I checked my post from last New Year's eve, I was so depressed and bored and what sucks is that nothing has really changed since last year. I'm still depressed and bored... I sorta have more friends and I sort of have more freedom of things to do. The only problem is even though I have friends and everything, I'm no one's best friend. I'm always a casual friend or just someone people hang out with. All my friends choose things over me, no matter how close they are to me. My friend Chris and Anne are going to Niagra falls to drink and party tonight, the drinking age there is 19, so they didn't invite me because I can't drink. Then Chris has the nerve to say to me "it's too bad you aren't 19" as he leaves. I think it's ridiculous that drinking is more important than your friends happiness, this is after, of course, I invite Chris to go to NYC with me from the 2nd to the 5th, hotel paid for...he can't spare a fucking night without drinking for me. Tommorow is my freaking birthday...what the fuck?
ALl of this just makes me feel like such a useless piece of shit. My other friends, who go to school with me, all go out to other parties and stuff and don't let me know what they're doing. They go to parties and they don't call me, some don't answer my IM's, no one remembers it's my birthday or anything... Ugh... I'm just very sad right now.... Maybe I shouldn't be typing all this, oh well, I'm gunna go. |
° Twas the night befow x-mas °
Posted by
Jon :: Dec 23, 2003
Yeah, so since me and my family are leaving early for christmas, we're celebrating it on christmas eve. It's pretty cool but seems to take away from the whole christmas "thing", it doesn't really seem like christmas anymore. I'm not sure if it's because of what day we're celebrating it on or because I'm just getting older. I remember how incredible and, dare I say, magical, it used to be. My family and I would all huddle around the christmas tree weeks before and decorate to christmas music. I would be so psyched, not just because of the presenst but just because it made me so happy to think of christmas. Everything is so different now and it's just a depressing holiday this year. My dad has hardly talked to me in the last week, if he does it's just to ask me to do something or complain about something. My mom seems to just try to find something to get mad at me about. The only person that hasn't been bothering me lately is my little brother, which is weird because he usually does. Maybe he's beginning to realize that my parents go overboard and that I'm so high-strung because I can't deal with them.
It really makes me sad though, I used to be so damn excited about christmas. All the christmas specials would come on TV and even though they all ended the same way, and I knew that inevitably Santa or some other hero would save the day. *sigh* I guess it's not worth dwelling on. Odd though, you see people in their mid-life saying they wish they were younger, these days you have people my age saying it. I think it has to do with the fact that in this day and age everyone loses their innocence a lot earlier than 40 years ago. So everything is just sped up, people mature faster and settle into their work-filled life early.
I'm just full of the Christmas spirit eh? Well I'll try to cheer everyone up a bit the next time I post. I did get a few videogames lately...everyone wants to hear about video games. Come to think of it, I got some DVD's too... So look at all these fucking pictures!!!
Phantom Planet DVD
X-men 2
Here are the CD's I got:
Phantom Planet - The Guest(re-release)
No Doubt - The Hits
Here are the games I got:
Space Channel 5 - Special Edition(PS2)
Mario Kart: Double Dash (GC)
Eternal Darkness (GC)
That's all for now. |
Posted by
Jon :: Dec 7, 2003
Life has been so fucking crazy lately and also annoying. My job is going good, school is going OK-ish, and my friends are awesome as usual. I still got a lot of stuff to do though and with the holidays coming up I can't imagine it getting any easier to deal with. I have to do so much stuff before then, I just hope that my acceptance letter from college gets here soon. The second it gets here my parents will be happy and give me a break, maybe buy me some shit (insert smiley face with sunglasses), can't wait for that. Here's a list of the things I'm looking forward to.
1. Christmas
I can't freaking wait for Christmas, it's the happiest goddamn time of the year. JESUS CHRIST! I love Christmas....Goddamn jesus christ!
2. Lord of the Rings: Return of the King
The Lord of the Rings movies are some of the best movies ever made, and the fact that we got a sequel each year, for the last two years, was awesome. I'm sorta sad to see it end though, I remember seeing the first one in 2000, sitting in really crappy seats at this ugly theatre in New Jersey. Just so everyone knows, Jersey is quite the smelly place. Anyway, I was in the first row and we had to lean our heads to the side to see the whole screen... funny thing is, I still really fucking loved the movie.
3. New Year's Day (not the eve)
Not only does it start a new year....but It's freaking my birthday. Hopefully I'll get some good stuff and maybe party a bit. I can't wait for it to come, woo..hoo.
I guess I'm not actually looking forward to that much, either that or I have a pathetic life or some shit.
This is from a night I barely remember.
Wow...yep...not sober.
Well I gotta do shit, as I always do, no site updates lately but hopefully that'll change one of these days when I am not a loser. See ya |
Posted by
Jon :: Dec 1, 2003
These are songs I started listening to this year, here's the list...enjoy.
1.) Big Brat - Phantom Planet
2.) Mona Lisa Overdrive - Matrix Reloaded
3.) We've had enough - Alkaline Trio
4.) The Scientist - Coldplay
5.) Legendary Theme - GitaroO man
6.) In Our Gun - Gomez
7.) Automatic Stop - The Strokes
8.) Battle Royale Soundtrack
9.) What to do - OK GO
10.) Wolf at the Door - Radiohead
Because I'm pretty lazy, and sorta depressed, I don't feel like writing anymore, download some of these and I bet you'll like em. You may not, but you might so try it out anyway. |
Posted by
Jon :: Nov 17, 2003
I wanted to thank everyone that sent me e-mails telling me to cheer up after my last post. It's really cool to see that people actually give a shit :-D It cheered me up and... well, yea, thanks. I haven't had much to do the last couple days because classes at RIT are coming to a close and I still get time off of school. My grades this quarter were actually pretty darn good and I'm happy I did well. I'm taking more classes next quarter - film language and digital animation. While working at the gas station, I bring along my tv/vcr....so far these are the films I've watched.
Death Becomes Her
This is definetly one of the weirdest films I've ever seen. I rented it because I'd seen it when I was much younger, I was actually pretty obsessed with it then. It's dark and really funny. The story centers around two women, one of them steals the other's husband. Ten years later the married woman is getting old, thats when she decides to take a potion that restores youth and beauty and promises never-ending life. The potion does not heal who takes it though, so if someone is injured the potion doesn't do much except make their injuries non-life-threatening.... That's pretty complicated, just look at the cover of it.
Buffy: The Vampire Slayer
I was surprised how well this held up over the years, it's still a pretty funny comedy. It's really campy and obviously really low-budget. Looking at it now, it deserved a sequel or a tv show.
Naked Gun
This movie just plain kicks ass. It's pretty amazing how funny it is today, I can imagine how funny it must have been back when it came out. It's nice seeing OJ in a film that isn't police evidence.
That's all, I'm tired, g'night. |
Posted by
Jon :: Nov 11, 2003
I'm bored
My head hurts
I have to urinate
I hate this place
I have homework
and I'm writing an entry on my website.
The last couple of days have been very exhausting and not very fun, nope, not one bit. Everyday I just feel like skipping my classes at school, I guess it's cause I'm depressed. Things haven't been going so well lately for me, not school or anything, just personally... I'm not the happiest guy. I just feel like I need something more, someone ...or something, I dunno. I'm sure it gets really boring hearing about my feelings and all that shit but I can't help it I have to vent somewhere. I'm not going to go in-depth because I never do that. I've just wanted to crawl in a little place and die.
ANYWAY!
I bought the new strokes CD and it's pretty great, I like it. The third song on the album I like the most but I'm just too lazy to look at that right now so please fuck off. I also bought the second family guy DVD which I watch when I work out each night. I like to keep my body in shape so I can be all modelish or something. I hope I look good, fuck who cares, it doesn't get you anywhere in the end. I bet ugly people read this and are like 'what a fucking asshole' but I realize what I'm like. Don't get me wrong, I know I'm not ugly but I also realize that vanity doesn't matter in life really... I just like to look good for my self-esteem, higher self-esteem helps me not be sad. Maybe a high self-esteem just shields misery -- yeah, that's it.
I have like no drive to write anymore, I'm sorry, someone needs to cheer me up. |
° One time I was really funny. °
Posted by
Jon :: Oct 30, 2003
I'm broke and poor and I have no money. If anyone wants to send me cash that would be great. Just send it to me. My work at the gas station is so boring and I don't get paid anything. Some of my friends go to college for engineering and one of them got paid 40 bucks an hour on an internship. FORTY DOLLARS AN HOUR. That means that they get paid as much for 3 hours as I do for working 20. THAT IS NOT RIGHT. The only reason I like the gas station is because of the people. Some REALLY interesting people come in and it's really crazy.
First, ya got the people I know from school acting like they don't know me cause we aren't in school(maybe I'm just a loser or something). Then you got the old people that insist on paying 25 cents in pennies. The middle-aged housewives that flirt with me for god knows why. The middle-aged men that don't say "you too" after I say "have a good one", which is the thing I say to make the customer feel more than a wallet or a gas tank. After that are the teens that come in to buy ciggarettes, these kids always smell really bad. That really confuses me how the kids who smoke are also the smell ones that are dirty. After that come the mom's that bring in their bastard children to buy candy. These kids are so fucking annoying:
"mommy I want a tic-tac"
"you can't buy just one tic-tac honey"
"but I want just one"
"Sir, can she buy just one tic tac?"
"No, sorry"
"Sir, please let her buy just one tic-tac"
"Um...no?"
"This is ridiculous, let me talk to your manager"
"Mommy where the fuck is my fucking tic-tac"
"...I just work at a gas station"
After those people are the kind of weird group of people. Small people (dwarfs) come in often, which blows my mind cause I really didn't know many dwarfs lived in Rochester. One came in that looked like she was about 24 and she started hitting on me, all seductive. I asked her for the amount of money she pumped and she's like "thanks sweety" "just put my change right there" "ride me like I'm a small child" and I was like...what, hey....I'm not into that, stop it, Ughnnn UHHHHHHH... then we left the employees bathroom.
A deaf guy came in and asked me for directions and I gave him the wrong directions, not cause I'm an asshole but just because I have no sense of direction. I think I sent him in the complete opposite direction, it makes me feel bad because in my head I'm like...he's just a poor deaf person, I know it's wrong to think that but being deaf is like having a huge wall in front of you. A huge soundproof...wall...
Well that's my fun gas station stuff. |
Posted by
Jon :: Oct 14, 2003
While surfing on amazon.com I clicked on a product and saw this girl's review of it. It has to be the most annoying girl I've ever seen, check out her other reviews... L8er!!!!
K80-aka-Katie's reviews
I bought this:
Best car chase scene ever.
I fucking need money so bad. I've been working and hanging with friends and buying food and paying for gas and I've just about ran out. I've got six dollars to my name right now and it sucks beyond comprehension. BAh.. Send me money and shit, but not shit cause that's messed. Send me like...one of those new twenty dollar bills.
Send em in.
This weekend me and my friends watched Kill Bill: Volume 1.
I must say, it totally kicked royal ass, pun intended. The pun of course being the fact that one of my favorite films is:
Battle Royale
Quentin Tarantino was a huge fan of Battle Royale also and actually did some trailers in Japan for the film. There are a couple things in the film that seem as if they are winking at Battle Royale or just inspired. The first would have to be the amount of violence in the film and the way it is portrayed. In Battle Royale blood shoots out of victims as is the same for Kill Bill. Another similarity has to do directly with the cast. The casting of Chiaki Kuriyama as Go Go Yubari (The schoolgirl) was sort of a nod to Battle Royale also.
Battle Royale's Chigusa
Kill Bill's Go Go
Chiaki plays Chigusa, a schoolgirl in a similiar uniform, in Battle Royale. In Battle Royale however, she is much more brutal and if you've seen it you know what I mean. During Chiaki's backstory scene she is shown having a conversation with a male her own age and doing to that male exactly what she did to the one in Battle Royale. The conversation the two have is also incredibly similar. The last coincidence with Chiaki is the fact that she bleeds from her eyes, a throwback to the death of Kuriyama in Battle Royale. The last thing I noticed between Kill Bill and Battle Royale was during one of the conversations between Uma Thurman when she is trying to find the swordmaker to find her steel[sword]. One of the men says "What'd ya want" which is a really bad way of translating something into english from Japanese. The exact same line is said by Kazuo in Battle Royale when he first meets Shuya and Noriko.
**Oh, if you haven't seen Battle Royale you're probably like what the fuck is this retard talking about.
Anyway, that was a fucking big update so be happy. See ya. |
Posted by
Jon :: Oct 8, 2003
For some reason I can never come up with any ideas of what to post on here, I can't think of anything really interesting. I'm quite the loser I guess. It's probably because my life has been both busy and boring lately and it's hard to come up with an idea to write a couple hundred words on. One thing I do realize is my site is getting alot more traffic than I ever expected it to get, it's scary, I have friends that are majors in web development and they can't get any hits. I'm not sure why I get the hits, am I interesting? I hope so.
One thing I think I'll talk about is my road rage, which has been growing over the few months I've had my license and car. Most times it's pretty funny when I look back at it but sometimes I just ask myself what I was thinking. Mostly I just get pissed at what the other drivers did when I look back at what happened. That's why I've taken a stand as a driver. I don't let people merge into traffic during a traffic jam because the fuckers never let me merge anyway. I hate when I'm going about 65 down the highway and some asshole sees me turn my blinker on so he speeds up. So the last guy that did that, I decided to follow him home and leave a dead rat on his doorstep. The next morning, as I watched from the bushes I saw him cower in fear. Who hasn't done that?
God, I have to fucking go to work. I gotta cut this short, but here's a link to some funny shit.
"Funny Shit"
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Posted by
Jon :: Sep 25, 2003
Wow it's been one crazy boring-ass week. I've been sick so a few days I've slept in till 1 and 2 o'clock, obviously those days I missed school so I'm a little behind. Not much though, I'm a good student so I get my shit done early, my shit is completed on time, and when I make a shit it looks perfect.
Things have been a little crazy with my relationships and friends, certain type of friend to be certain but that's as far as I go with that. I just feel that I'm not the only friend that that friend wants to be friends with in the way that we are friends with each other. Now I wouldn't have a problem with that if the person wanted to be friends as in friends that just hang out and don't do certain things friends don't do because you need to be a different type of friend to do those sort of "friendly" things with one and other. If you actually understood all that I just typed you understand my situation a little more clearly. It's not that I don't trust the person it's just that sometimes I'm not very confident or sure of myself. I don't like being fucked with or fucked around with so I get very paranoid when I think these things or maybe even know these things.
ANYWAY. School is going pretty darn well in that I'm rarely there because I have a nice little block of study halls which allow me to leave the school for long periods of time. On Wednesdays I'm only at school till 9:30. NINE THIRTY! Yeah that's fucking hot as hell and it only gets better, or something...shit I was going to say something but I lost it.
Eh, anyway, I've been downloading dreamcast games like crazy and burning them to CD. I've got about 50 dreamcast games that I didn't buy that work perfectly, it's great. Yeah, it's the nerd in me, deal with it.
Besides all of this, I'm taking a class at RIT. Scriptwriting, duh, you knew that if you have ever talked to me or looked at this webpage. I'm taking the class and I'm actually doing pretty well, I've got a B+ Average which in my book is pretty damn good. Most of the students there are second or third years, so they were pretty annoyed when I told them I was in high school. After I said it the girl goes "Oh my god, are you seriously in high school?". No I'm making it up for fun cause I like to fuck with you. It's sort of weird, I thought the writing in the class would be much more advanced for people taking a scriptwriting class. It wasn't though, the short story I read seemed to be the best of the bunch that were read out loud. I don't mean to stroke my own ego, but they were actually pretty lame. I'll post it right here:
A boy sits waiting in a small brightly lit room. He sits between his mother and father, his younger brother pacing in front of the teary-eyed trio. In the boy’s hand, he holds the rope he had fastened to the dog’s neck earlier that morning. The dog had whimpered lightly but eventually limped into the family station-wagon. Then and now the boys hands trembled.
From a door opposite the family a man dressed in white emerges. The boy jumps to his feet only to be held back by his father who walks over to the man. The two exchange dialogue and the father looks back at the three, the smile on his face betraying the tears forming in his eyes.
Gathering the family, the man in white leads them to a room of cages. The cage on the bottom left holds the boy’s dog. Sitting on it’s hind legs the dog barks and whines. The man in white, much to the boys surprise opens the cage door. The man in white ushers the family over to
the dog, which besides the bandages on his lower abdomen seems fine.
It is the father that is the first to greet the dog, a light tap on the back and a hug. Next is the younger brother, who gives the dog a hug that makes it whimper. The mother falls to her knees, running her hands along the dogs ears, she nuzzles up to the dog, who licks her already moistened face, she retracts from the dog quickly, leaving the rest of the family. Finally it is the boy’s turn, smiling he gives the dog a gentle hug, a kiss on his forehead, and a pat on the back. With his right hand he unrolls the leash he had brought the dog with.
Almost cringing, the mother slowly shuffles the younger brother out of the room, leaving only the man in white, the father, and the boy. A mask of confusion covers the boys face as he stares at the dog’s neck. There is no collar. He looks back at his father, who quickly looks away; the man in white kneels down. Speaking to the boy, the man in white gently takes the leash out of the boy’s hand. He pats the dog on the head then puts his hand on the boys shoulder, he tells him more.
Tears begin streaming down the boy’s face, he looks at his father, who is holding back his own tears, next at the man in white, who remains emotionless, then at his dog. The dog tilts it’s head slightly looking at the boy. The boy says something in his father’s direction but the father does not react. The dog raises its paw and places it on the boy’s knee. The boy turns back to his dog and he embraces it, sobbing into it’s fur. It nuzzles him back, the two sit still except for the motion of their breathing and the slight contortions of the boys sobs.
On his shoulder the boy feels a familiar hand, it is his fathers. His father gently pulls him from the dog and turns him around, he looks right into his eyes, they are both silent. The boy wraps his arms around his father and cries.
It is the man in white that interrupts them, he loudly closes the door to the cage, sealing the dog inside. The dog wearily peers out of the cage and whimpers; he continues whimpering as the man in white leads the boy and his father out of the room.
Hope you liked it. I'm out of here. |
Posted by
Jon :: Sep 18, 2003
Yeah, it's been sort of a boring/nerve-racking week. I've been at odds with a few friends and I've also been working at the gas station, meaning I've been bored as fuck for quite a few hours of the week.
The only thing that saves me from complete boredom at the gas station is the little TV that I bought. It's a nice little thing to have especially when I'm stuck in a small room for almost 7 hours straight. It's such a boring job and the pay is so miniscule, ugh. It's so annoying having all these people come in and ask me the most retarded questions ever. People will come in and ask me what the price of gas is if they think it's too high. Like I'm fucking raising the price to benefit on my own, why don't you check the sign you fucking nimrod.
Just a short update, I've got to do some work for the college course I"m taking at RIT. It's really great right now and I think some of the work I've produced for it is some of my best.I just hope I do well with my other stuff at regular school, my art stuff there is always in jeopardy because the art teacher is a huge dickhead.
Yep.
Peace. |
Posted by
Jon :: Sep 10, 2003
Take a look, hot off the pre- err, card makey thingies.
Yep and here's my schedule (yes it's sort of a joke)
http://schedule.csh.rit.edu/?s=GKJf2vP |
Posted by
Jon :: Sep 8, 2003
This Kid is a dick.
But yeah, anyway. Not much going on this past weekend besides almost being arrested. I won't go into details because I just don't need to. IT was quite the party weekend though. I start classes at RIT tommorow bright and early at 10 AM, yippie.
Oh and I just want you guys to check out the Short story stuff to the right. It's worth looking at god damnit. I wrote it for creative writing awhile ago and I decided I'd change the story a bit and create and online feature. It's really coming along but the second part of it is quite long so it will be some time before I can get it online and functioning correctly.
For people to lazy to read some of it, the story follows this guy named David. He wins a contest to spend the night in a bank vault to win $1000. Well, something happens while he is in there and when he leaves the bank vault the next day stuff is quite different. I'm nto going to divulge anything yet because part 2 of the story is a big part of it and it's better for it to be a surprise.
Read it though, It took me a long time to write.
See ya guys :) |
Posted by
Jon :: Sep 3, 2003
Yep, school starts today and I'm pretty satisfied with my schedule. It almost seems as if I'm not in school it's so relaxed. Somedays I have only 2 classes and then the rest of the day I'm off :-D It's so freaking great.
Here are some of my senior pics so people can look at me.
Sexy.
Oh yeah.
I think these turned out sorta well and I'm not going to complain. I wish I had looked better the day they were taken cause I think I look better than that in real life.
Here's a picture I like.
hehehehh |
Posted by
Jon :: Aug 31, 2003
There's some new content coming, something that's sorta big. You just wait, you'll be happy if you're intelligent.
Everyone needs to look at the sidebar and click on the icon that says Short Story . It's something new and it took me a while to design the stupid thing. I wanna hear some decent comments about it, so drop me an e-mail so I can feel important. Thanks. See ya. |
Posted by
Jon :: Aug 28, 2003
No Updates cause I'm a bum. I know this and you might as well just accept it. I know people go to my site and they go to the frontpage and they're like "What a fucking moron, he hasn't updated in forever" these people that say this don't seem to understand that I have a life. Yeah, that's right. I have a life. Even though I don't believe what I just typed it has to mean something, even if it's just text. I sorta have a life but it's more like depressing scenes from a movie strung together loosely.
There's the setting. Jon, living with his dysfuctional family in a big old house. Tonight there are guests. The mother and father anxiously prepare food, while the guests meander between rooms seeing with their hands. The younger of the two sons plays outside with his younger guest friends. The older son(Jon) sits on his computer. The mother puts on a smile until she enters the room her son(Jon) is in, upon entering her expression inverts, she is angry, but that is not new.
The Rising Action. After the night with the guests and the incident that occured when the mother decided her son was not social enough, the son is banished to his room where he is told that he doesn't deserve what he has. He sighs then looks at what he has, what he has is not in balance with what he does not have.
This is where this screenplay stops. I haven't finished it yet. There are a few scenes missing, the one where his parents go on his website and read his words, they think, our son is broadcasting to the world lies! LIES! that's a lie in itself.
Completely switching modes here, I got some good stuff going on for me. I've gotten a job at the gas station in town, yeah I know, it's a gas station, but there isn't anything wrong with sitting around doing nothing for six hours and getting paid to do it. It's way more than I got paid at the supermarket and only a dollar less than at Red Lobster. It's great for me since I like just sitting and reading, the job could drive other people crazy though.
School starts soon and I'm taking some classes at RIT. I'm so damn happy that my RIT friends are coming back, I can't wait to seem them and finally get back to some half-decent partying.
That's all I feel like talking about right now, it's a decent sized update. There you go, I'm obliged. |
Posted by
Jon :: Aug 21, 2003
| There's an update coming soon...don't worry, Jon isn't dead. |
Posted by
Jon :: Aug 12, 2003
Yeah so I was gone all this weekend at this wedding. It was my cousin Jared's, he was marrying his long-time girlfriend Justine. We left early Friday morning and arrived at my Aunt's house around 5 pm, it was a freaking long-ass trip.
Though the trip down was boring, I was not bored. I read the new book I'd found in NYC. Ya know, Battle Royale.
battle royale!
This is one gory book. It's roughly six-hundred pages and there are over forty gruesome deaths in it. There were actually points where I'd look away from my book and just cringe. If you're one of those kids like me that likes to read messed-up stuff purely for the sake knowledge, this is a book to buy. The thing about it is, yes there is alot of bloodshed, but some of the passages'll make you teary. Behind all the killing you see that these characters are really still kids and have no idea what they're doing. It's sad.
We were going early to go to my aunt Pam's sub party. She basically bought subs for fifty people. The good thing about the party was that since all the old people were gathering outside on the deck, I was left to attend the alcohol in the kitchen. DOn't get me wrong, I'm not some messed-up drunk person, I just was having a horrible time and figured I'd loosen up with a couple drinks.
Then I was loosened. I was laughing like an idiot at anything anyone said. It was nice but at the same time I felt like a complete idiot. I was just being so dumb. I drank way too much and by the end of the night I was ready to throw up. I didn't however.
I will continue with what happened tommorow. I don't feel like talking anymore.... HA.... |
° Legendary Theme (Acoustic) °
Posted by
Jon :: Aug 4, 2003
Not much going on lately, that's why I haven't been updating the page as much. It's not that I'm lazy, I just don't have anything that interesting to say. I haven't done that much. I did buy some stuff though, some good stuff. I bought some new videogames. Pssht yeah, I know, loser.
Gitaro Man!
This game kicks so much ass. You play this kid named U-1 and you have to save the world from something? I really don't know, there isn't much of a story. All I know is that it has some of the best music I've heard in a videogame.
Shit, another short update, I'm sorry guys, I have to go. I promise one of these days I'll get around to a much bigger update. PROMISE. See ya.
My brother is so annoying...blah~! |
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 29, 2003
I'm back from NYC and the bitching has already begun. My parents have already started to bother me about anything possible. Jon do this, Jon do that, Jon make brownies from a hat. Well maybe they don't rhyme about it and maybe they didn't ask me to make brownies out of a hat, but they are sure bothering the hell out of me. Mowing the lawn is the only job I can do for money these days since I can't get a job. I can't get a job because I'm going to play school soccer. Here is the problem, they say I HAVE to play soccer or they get really pissed but on the other hand, if I don't get a job they make me feel bad all day. It's so fucking shitty.
I was just sitting around today and remembering stuff and thinking about how this summer has been pretty odd. I haven't done a hell of a lot, but I already want to go back to school
I miss the teachers, even though most of them I think are complete idiots. Every student with an ego think that though. The thing I'm looking most forward to is my friends coming back to RIT. I had so much fun their last year and lots of partying, too much partying. Those kids made me do alot of very bad things. It's great though, some of the best memories of my life I had there, as weird as that sounds.
I got my senior pics on Monday and my mom and friends think I should use them as headshots, for modeling or something. I don't think I could be a model or whatever but it's nice to have people say I could be. Yea, I'm kicking the ego into OVERDRIVE right about now!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
A hyper Jon says,
Peace
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Posted by
Jon :: Jul 25, 2003
Sorry for the lack of updates, personal reasons I don't wish to delve into. Blah blah blah. Yeah, so anyway, the film class is finally over, and the film that my group created is quite the embarassment. It's really horrible and it really sucks.
On a lighter note, I bought two books yesterday. I bought Battle Royale, the book that spawned the film hit in Japan. I love the film, it's my favorites foreign film and I can't wait to start reading. The premise is pretty simple. Battle Royale takes place in the not too distant future, supposedly if Japan had won World War II. The youth loses their respect for elders and begins to revolt. Their are countrywide school strikes and the government decides to put it all to an end. A program called the BR act is passed. The BR act takes the worst ninth grade class in the country, each year, and puts them on a deserted island.
The students have three days to kill each other. The survivor is the only one allowed to leave the island. The problem is there can be only one survivor. Attached to the students necks are collars, if there is not only one survivor after three days, the necklaces explode.
As you can imagine, things get pretty intense and quite gory. It's incredibly violent considering that the principle actors are teenagers. It's an incredibly powerful thing however, and the violence is there to prove a point.
The instructional video the students are shown when they find out
they're going to fight in the Battle Royale. Dark Humor.
Last years winner, yikes.
The film is pretty hard to find in the United States because of the whole Columbine thing. I really recommend seeing it though. You can find it on ebay and amazon.co.uk . Well, I have to go shop with my friend cause apparently you do that in New York?
See ya. |
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 18, 2003
----- Original Message -----
From: Marky
To: MMartin7@rochester.rr.com
Sent: Thursday, July 17, 2003 7:06 PM
Hi ! Is it possible to buy pics of your face and feet, would really enjoy to get such pics of yourself, sorry for the question
Marky 27 yo from Germany
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... Words cannot describe how disturbed this makes me feel... |
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 15, 2003
Burn me down if that's how everything is gonna start
With a flame from a spark off the look on your face
On a day like today
I could have made out every raindrop falling down
On your head
Now I fear that I may taste
These tears rolling down my face
And realize something is wrong
With the light of the sun
In the color of the sky
With you and everyone
Phantom Planet
"Something is Wrong" |
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 14, 2003
Well, the last couple days have sort of sucked and I haven't really been having too much fun. I really miss being home and being with my family and friends. I'm used to having fun and doing stuff I want to, but here it's like I'm just back at school. If I could go back and decide whether to go or not, I'd definetly not have come here. First of all, I have a curfew and it's bullshit. Besides that, the people here are just not what I expected. I had so much fun last year and this year has turned into such a waste.
The teacher I talked about earlier, I told him I was here last year. He goes "why the heck did you come back"? That's the sort of encouragement I'm getting. The whole social situation doesn't help either. The people here already seperated into their little groups the first day. The girl I was hanging out with, Demetrea, she is now clinging onto this other guy. I have no friends here. It sucks!
That was an image I was going to put on the splash page to the site(when you go to just snowspot.net) but I thought it'd be a bit too morbid. I was also thinking of putting this:
But I didn't necessarily create that. It's fillerbunny from the JTHM comics. I get into Jhonen Vasquez and his comics when I get depressed. I really get into pitch-black humor. Lately I've been VERY into it. That's all I'm going to say right now. Things are sucking extremely. *sigh*
See ya. |
° You're really going to do well in this business...! °
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 11, 2003
It's been a tiring couple days, so I'm sorry that I haven't been able to update as much. I usually don't update a hell-of-a-lot but lately I really haven't had anything else to do, that's mainly because of the lame curfew we have. All the pre-college students have to be in their rooms by ten o'clock on weekdays, and twelve o'clock on weekends. It's so goddamn annoying, I mean, I'm in fucking New York City and I have to be in bed before anything fun starts to happen. It's not like I could do much, I'm only seventeen but I still think we should be able to do what we want. If they had the parents just sign a release saying the college wasn't responsible for the students whereabouts it'd make things alot easier.
The first week of classes is over and I'd be lying if I said it was even close to as good as last year. It's been horrible, well, not horrible but not as good as last year. The screenwriting teacher loathes me I think because I was reading a book in his class. The class is so damn boring and he didn't seem to care at first. Then he stops the whole fucking class and points out I'm reading. Yeah thanks you dick, I'm reading because you can't keep my interests. Later in the class I asked him to look over my short script. It's about a supermarket and I want to hopefully produce it next year. The guy looks at me and goes "Yeah, you do that doing class then ask me a favor, you're going to do really well in the business!" I understand he'd be mad, but the tone in his voice made me want to sock the guy. It was the most fucking sarcastic thing I'd ever heard and he kept repeating it over and over again. Luckily, he liked the script and gave me some pointers.
Our filmmaking group seems so misguided, their story idea is absolutely horrible. I'm trying to tell them that this isn't going to work and these shots cannot be pulled off in the time alotted but they just won't listen. They go through this whole tyrade about how we MUST shoot this scene on the subway. YOU CAN'T SHOOT ON THE SUBWAY, IT ISN'T ALLOWED. I kept telling them that, I knew because last year we had wanted to shoot a portion of ours down there. They kept arguing with me, so I get pissed and ask to go to the bathroom just to get away from them. I come back, low and behold, the teacher told them they aren't allowed to teach on the subway. HA!
New York is a pretty interesting city. Everything is overpriced but you can find anything you need. It's a weird trade-off. I found some DVD's that you can't really find anywhere around me but they were like forty bucks! Who the fuck pays forty dollars for a DVD that was probably produced for around seven? Gah! It's so annoying when you're a film student and you can't buy films. I don't know what Criterion is thinking, they're the only place you can buy classic films and they charge exhorbited amounts of money for them. They charge fucking forty dollars for a ninty minute movie. God I want to break off one of their arms and then mess with it. Like, smack a girls ass...I dunno, what the hell would I do with a severed arm?
I think what's got me annoyed up here is that no one remembers me. I was here last year and none of the teachers recall me, I actually had to tell them I was here last year. They don't catch on, it makes me aware of how invisible you are when you're a loser. Only when someone is attractive are they noticed, if not you're pushed to the back of someone's memory. It's sad but it's true, people only like me now because I'm not fat anymore and I care how I look. I'm a tool, I'll readily admit that, but if becoming a tool helps me to enjoy life more then I'm all for it.
It's funny, these days everyone tries to be so "unique" and different. When all that's different about them, whether is be clothes, music, or their attitude, is basically something that was copied from someone else. There are no longer unique people, just creative people. They find ideas and they change them or alter them a bit, but there is nothing made up, there is nothing original.
Well, I think I'm going to go catch a movie cause I'm a loser. I'll update once again tonight if I find the time (is he kidding?). Catch you later. |
° Demetrea....Why is thou's name so long...ith °
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 7, 2003
Today was a long and incredibly boring day. Today was the first day of classes at SVA. SVA, if you didn't already know from my previous posts, stands for The School Of Visual Arts. It's located in NYC, and that's where I'm spending three weeks over the summmer. Good, now that that is all straightened out I can explain how today sucked royal ass. I"m not saying all this to be one of those "I hate life" people. I just really had a bad time since I knew everything they were going to say.
The day started out on the wrong foot. I woke up at eight and went to shower, I turn the shower on and brown water starts pouring out of the faucets. Well, I hope it was water. Anyway, I ended up just washing my hair. I get dressed in- what the fuck do you care what I dress in you freak?
Instead of starting classes, today we had a big meeting where we all learned about the program we are enrolled in. It was long and drawn out and I almost fell asleep twice. If it wasn't for this kid next to me that sorta smelled like beefy jerky, I don't know if I could have stayed awake. The kid smelled so good, and I hand't really had breakfast. I really wanted to bite him but I thought, hey that might be a weird thing to do during orientation, if I bit him later people would know me and not make that big a deal. So if that kid is reading this, I want him to know that he is going to be bitten by me.
After the long orientation, we all went to our selected classrooms and began "learning". Well, ha, we didn't really learn. It was more like ... assisted suicide. Except I didn't want to commit suicide and no one was helping me do it. I guess it's not really like assisted suicide at all. But I felt like I wanted to kill myself by the end. Well, that was at least until we got to watch a video. Visual Stimulation, WOO FuCKING HOO!
We watched this old film, so old it was on a reel, called "War Games". It was basically a simulation of what would happen during a nuclear war. Very graphic, in fact, it was insanely graphic for the time it was made. I'd recommend it if you ever get a chance to view it.
After that we had a lunch break, me and this girl named Demetrea hung out and went to this small place called Molly's Pub. It was on 22nd street and it's this really nice looking old place. There was saw-dust on the floor and all the waiters and waitresses had Irish accents. It makes me wonder if anyone has ever faked something like that to get a job. Maybe at a Chinese restaurant?
After eating, the second class began. It's so painful I don't even want to talk about it. Just remember these two words: Underpants Cucumber. I won't tell you how they're important now, but trust me you will need to remember those words.
That's all for now I'm sooo fucking tired. Fuck u people I'm going to sleep! |
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 6, 2003
Well I'm here and I'm all settled in. I got the labtop hooked up, the TV pluged in, the broadband connection, the food, the air conditioner and everything else. I'm currently sitting here and enjoying my freedom. I can't tell you what a relief it is to be away from their constant...parenting. I don't even know if it could be considered parenting, it's just annoying me or yelling at me. There is no in between, just a constant barrage of words. It's ok though, I take this time off each year so I can come back and deal with it. Then by this time next year I'll be ready for college and ready to go :-D
I'm really enjoing the Family Guy boxed set I got. What a freaking amazing show, can't believe people didn't watch it and it got canned. What are people, fucking retarded? Here's a screenshot I'm taking with the screenshot taker thing, cause I feel all cool. Yeah, here it is...WOO.
Yeah, look at that shit. I took that right off the DVD. Yep, all me, no one else. FUCK YEAH! God I'm bored... All the other little bastards staying during these three weeks are making friends already. What the hell? How do you meet someone and hang out in the course of about six hours? I'm either I'm a social reject, or they're just very needy people. I'm such a loser, I actually hung up a sign that said "need to go on the internet? ask me". Maybe I'm the needy person.
I've decided I'm going to use the time down here to work on all aspects of my creativity. Ya know, like, I'm going to work on my graphic design shit, my short story stuff, and of course my web design. I'm going to hopefully add my big thirty page short story to the site. I might even add a script after I get it critiqued by the guy who runs the whole program. He's a film major and he's worked in the industry and all of that. It's pretty nice to be able to get that done considering all the teachers near me are teaching inept.
This is a logo of a place located near my dorm. I thought it was cool enough to snap a picture of and upload. So you better damn well appreciate it.
I'm going to be updating a lot more often because I'll probably be in my room quite a bit. The internet here doesn't even work during the day, so it's pointless to stay online at night. It's really a damn let down too. My parents paid all this cash and the internet only works at certain times. Isn't it weird how something so good always seems to have a catch. It's odd, whenever something really great happens to people, there has to be some sort of problem that stops it from being perfect. Ah well, just me whining I guess. I'm out for the night, not sure what I'll do. I'm bored already. Heh.
bye all. |
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 6, 2003
Well, I'm here and things are great so far. I've eaten alot of crap that I shouldn't have, I've gotten a new dvd, and I'm almost about to get away from my parents. Woo! It's such an awesome place down here, you have no idea till you've actually been here. The people are the greatest part, just watching them and meeting them is half the experience here. Already I've been extremely pissed off at people and on the other hand, happy they're there.
I was walking to the movie theatre and enjoying being away from the barrage of insults my little brother throws at me. It was definetly the most ghetto part of the city I've been in, even though it isn't really ghetto. There's a rundown CVS market and some other things that make the street look a little sketchy. I was walking by a phonebooth when this woman just stares at me, she's walking straight at me so I dodge her. She walks by and sort of molests my hand, for who knows what reason. This wasn't too bad and I was sorta flattered some woman wanted to touch me. So I pushed on and arrived at the theatre, as I got there I went to open the door and this young african-american girl comes up and just walks right into me. She walks right the fuck into me, I was really pissed but I just walked by her. Then her whole family just stand in front of the door as I try to get in, like I was opening the door for them and not myself. They just stand there staring at me.
Ya see, that shit pisses me off. If you stand in front of me, I will swear at you in my head.
Inversely, there are also people in the city that're quite helpful. I was walking across the street and I happened to go a little late, right as the light was turning. A car was on route to hit me but didn't because a guy on a bike turned in front of him. The guy was staring at me as he peddled away, so either he was saying "your welcome" or "I'm a homosexual". Either way, he helped me out.
Well my mom has come to bitch at me. I'm off. |
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 4, 2003
It's here, it's finally here. I'm packing, I'm getting ready to go. All my stuff is pretty much packed and my stomach is getting that tingly feeling. That feeling where you aren't sure if you're going to throw up or you just need to eat a hamburger. I'm freaking out though, three weeks in NYC, that's alot of time! Only hitch right now is that I can't find my goddamn glasses. I actually had a dream that I found my glasses, how retarded is that? That's pretty retarded!
Tonight'll be fun though, the whole family is going to watch fireworks in NYC. Apparently it's a huge deal there because they're shutting down an entire street for them. I never understood the whole big deal with fireworks, loud shiny things I guess. It'll be nice if my family can actually get along for the night. We're so messed it's crazy, all we do is fight all day. Then at night sometimes we argue in our sleep.
On Sunday, I'm home free. No family to worry about, I'm only focused on the filmmaking stuff. It's a nice feeling, having no worries except having a good time. Cause that's what filmmaking is for me, a really good time. I'm already writing the script that's due the second week of class. I'm doing it now because I figure that my group will be too lazy to do it. Shit, I probably shouldn't have written that, they might read this. I'm going to be handing out my website URL like a fat kid hands out...wait that doesn't make sense.
Here's a kitty. Wait, scratch that, kitty pictures are overdone. Here's a...um...Dingo!
 Dingo!
I thought it'd be really funny to have the dingo eating a baby. Cause of the whole "a dingo ate your baby"...yeah, you know the joke. I was thinking about that stuff yesterday. The dead baby jokes. It was right before a soccer game and we were all standing on the sidelines "chatting", this kid Mike starts talking about his car. He's like "Guess what I have stuck in my tire". Most kids said a nail or something, one kid said a monkeywrench...I think he was trying to be funny. I was sitting there laughing to myself, cause I thought, how funny would it have been if I'd said dead baby. These kids are all uptight bastards, so I think I would have just gotten weird looks
Wooo, I found my glasses. I'm happy, all is well. Now I have to take a shower and I'm off. I actually found the glasses where I had left them in my dream (about my glasses). Funny eh? I bet you're laughing, it's hysterical. I'm off for the day, update Saturday? Possibly... Update Sunday? Definetly.
That's all for now, enjoy my wealth of updates, for they come less often than most people would hope. See ya! |
° New York City, not quite there yet. °
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 3, 2003
Ahhh, I can't believe I'm going to be in New York City soon. Time is bearing down on me and soon I'll be on the road. Today will be spent packing and saying goodbye to my friends. Today will also be spent listening to the rantings and ravings of my mother who apparently cannot hear me from the next room. Anyway, I hope you guys are enjoying the new look to the site, I spent a bit of time and got some help from someone and it turned out pretty decently.
I'm not a grammerolergerist, so excuse the abuse of English.
While I'm in NYC I'm going to be uploading pictures and writing stories of my "crazy" adventures. You can read those on the right under "NYC". It's pretty self-explanitory and if you can't understand it I will find some way to injure you.
I keep thinking about how this is going to be a long three weeks. I won't get to see my friends or Chris and it's going to freaking suck. Laura and Chris are supposed to come up and see me, hopefully we can get in some trouble or something. I want to bring them up and show them the best places for pizza and stuff like that. The pizza in NYC is by far the best in the country(I almost typed "by fart" *laughs hysterically* ). I remember when I went last year I probably gained about five pounds because I was living on pizza. Well back then I was just plain fat so maybe I just moved my elbow a certain way and gained five pounds.
It's really odd how I've changed in the last year. The first year I went I was so unsocial. I was terrified of going to New York City and meeting new people and trying to make friends. I totally sucked at making friends. I got there and I met Ashley and it was really the best Summer of my life. I was totally unsocial and I only really hung with Ashley and this dorky kid named Matt, but it was more social than I had been the entire school year.
I have a feeling that this year will be a lot more fun. As you've probably discerned from my post, I've changed quite a bit. Lots more friends, doing better in school, more attractive(I hope), and I care less about what others think about me. It's crazy to think all this happened in one year. It'a really crazy to think that at the same time last year I weighed 180 pounds and now I weigh 130. Yay for soccer keeping me in the best shape I've ever been in. Hmmm, this sorta sounds like an entire entry praising myself... well fuck you people I'm happy for once.
The laptop I'm bringing to NYC will help nicely, so each day I can post something before I go to bed. Fuck, I probably won't even get to sleep. I'll be up all night Iming people(tool) and downloading movies(tool) and listing to britney spears(...)(j/k). I have to wake up at eight for classes and I'm thinking I have to be in bed by at least one. That gives me a good seven hours of sleep.
Whatever happens in NYC, I can't wait for it to happen. My next post will be from NYC most likely, or it'll be the flash DVD thing I've been working on to upload.
-Peace! |
° A bitter-sweet ditty in the third person... °
Posted by
Jon :: Jul 1, 2003
Audioslave
Website
Select Songs: Like A Stone
Coldplay
Website
Select Songs: The Scientist, Clocks
Fiona Apple
Website
Select Songs: I Know, Get Gone, Paperbag
Jon Brion
Website
Select Songs: Showtime
Junior Senior
Very Hot Website
Select Songs: Move Your Feet
No Doubt
Website
Select Songs: New
Phantom Planet
Website
Select Songs: Anything they have created(not a song)
Radiohead
Website
Select Songs: Wolf at the Door, Scatterbrain, 2+2=5
Weezer(not quite sure)
Website
Select Songs: Ex-girlfriend
See, I'm not sure if it's weezer in that last song, but it is labeled as them. The "select songs" means those are the songs I'm listening to now, it's not like these are the only songs I've ever heard of. Cause I know some ass is going to e-mail me and say "hey retard there are better songs than "Wolf at the Door", you freaking newbie". I hate those e-mails.
Anyway, check out those bands and check out their websites. Check the songs too, I think I'll upload the ex-girlfriend song so everyone can hear it, since most likely you won't find it anywhere else. That's all for now, enjoy the summer. |
Posted by
Jon :: Jun 30, 2003
IT's almost time for me to leave and I'm very excited. I'm also a bit sad about the whole thing. I really won't get to see my "significant other" for a while and I'm definetly going to miss my friends. Luckily I rented a laptop from Rent-a-center and I'll be able to talk with everyone online. It's so great...I'm on it right now!!!
I'm looking forward to the fast T3 connections at SVA. At RIT they had connections that went about 10 megs per second, it was freaking great. I just wanna get up there and be able to download shit really fast. I'll probably get bored with it in the first few days, but hey..why the hell not.
Today was pretty fun. I picked up the laptop, went and got a credit card for the trip, had my cellphone fixed, then went to Olive Garden for some great Italian food. God that shit is great, if you don't like Olive Garden you're a communist. A FRIGGIN Communist!
I'll be posting some flash stuff up for when I'm gone and I'm working on it quite feverishly, trying to get it finished. It'll be up though and it's pretty darn good.
That's all for now. |
Posted by
Jon :: Jun 26, 2003
Ahhh, today was pretty darn relaxing. It's my official first day of summer and I spent it doing absolutely nothing. It was just me and my copy of Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire and the hot summer sun. I was out there tanning and reading it so I could look hot for tommorow. I'm going to Darien Lake with Chris, I bought some all-day passes for us and we're going to the water park there.
Besides tanning today, me and my friends Roger and Laura hung out and drove my families four-wheelers. It was great, like it always is, Laura rode on mine and whenever we'd go off a jump she's almost fly off the damn thing. Roger on the other hand, was flying by in the other four-wheeler trying to race against me. Bastard tried to brake and turn at the same time and ended up flipping on his side. After we rode on the four-wheelers we went to Rogers house, then to Target. When I was there, Roger bought me some Sugar Babies. THOSE THINGS ARE MY FAVORITE CANDY!
 Sugar Babies! | |
